thisisnotreallyablogforreal

Sorry for the lack of new writing. Lately, I have found my writing to be filled with angst.I think it is because I stopped taking my birth control this month and therefore have experienced a slew of unfamiliar hormones running through my body, andI do not want to subject those at mindyaf.com to incoherent emotional rambles about death and the intricate way that human beings are connected to nature.Speaking of,I started meditated again this winter.I’m not doing very well.I get into it, (like no thoughts at all) total third eye, and then I start thinking about food. I know meditation is kind of about the relationship between wandering off and then refocusing, and I know I’m not supposed to deny myself my thoughts, but I feel that meditating about food is not the way to achieve inner peace.I’m currently re-designing this website.I bought a book about php, (it’s like java but not as cool or something) and I’m having fun teaching myself how to make the site a little more interesting.The new pages should be up in the next month or so.Get excited.